"Think before you speak, before you act, before anything you do"
Hello there, i'm Christine.
Everyone has their own battles, let me tell you mine.
I'm OCD, about thinking. I think WAY. WAY....too much.
I'm obsessed with it. I can't stop, it's a bles--- it's a curse.
I have to admit, it makes me a lot smart than other people my age, they don't think enough.
But, nitpicking at everything, going over something over...and over and over....
NEEDING PERFECTION.
I know for a fact, i'm a wonderful person.
I know for a fact, i'm a wonderful person.
I know this because there are people that support me, love me
and want to keep me in their lives. That must mean I did something right.
These are the thoughts that fight to keep my afloat
But I allow myself too much power
and I find myself looking up to a light
that fades ever so quickly as I sink deeper into myself
It is so unproductive.
It is so unproductive.
Thinking and harming myself like this just makes me even more useless.
I can't even carry out daily tasks without my mind drifting into this pit
then my focus is broken, which can only lead to less success, and more failures
It's a cycle I cannot seem to break
When i'm alone I have all the time in the world to think.
When i'm alone I have all the time in the world to think.
And unfortunately for me, the subject is always me.
More specifically, it's my faults. Because I feel that I have so many
so many faults, that it would never matter how many good qualities I had
because I'm still dissapointed with myself.
And what's worse, I KNOW I need to stop,
but I feel no strength to motivate me to.
And it's a never ending cycle, of tears, blame, and disgust.
And it's a never ending cycle, of tears, blame, and disgust.
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